[Poasplus] I think I diagnosed myself

Tue May 29 14:42:47 PDT 2007

yep, it could have.  Here is the thing ( I just got back and I am so mad I want to strangle someone).  It wasn't on the first HSG, the one before the miscarriage.  Uterus was all clear then.  Where she saw it was the one I had last year 4 months after my miscarriage.  The radiologist saw it, noted it as being consistent with yada yada yada, and at the bottom in the conclusion section wrote "possible".  

The holier than thou doctor today says he wants to get another HSG, and thinks that since she wrote the word possible, nothing will be there.  He said several times he wished my husband were there today because I would have such a difficult time remembering and explaining everything.  He told me absolutely nothing new and didn't answer one single question.  

His solution is of course IVF.  Can't afford it.  And I feel like if I got pregnant 4 months after my reversal, who is to say for sure my tube isn't necessarily working.  His next solution is IUI.  I said Tricare doesn't cover any artificial means of conception.  He says you're right (no shit sherlock) and it will cost $800 per month and he wants to try superovulation through Clomid with IUI for 3 - 4 months.  My response - can't afford that either.

After another 10 minutes of him rambling about my one short tube, he says he wants to do 3 - 4 months of Clomid monitored, so we can see if I am even ovulating on my right side and hopefully time it perfectly.  

So, as much as I hate Clomid, I guess that's my only option.  I asked him if there were other fertility drugs that don't have the side effects that Clomid does.  He says what side effects, Clomid doesn't cause cancer.  I said ok, but what about the decrease in cervical mucus and thinning of the endometrial lining.  And I have already been on 6 cycles of Clomid within the last year.  To which his response was just "there are other drugs" and "we will be monitoring you".  So basically there are other options, but hey, let's use Clomid again anyway.  Just because he didn't see me ovulate on an ultrasound.  

So, I don't know shit more than I already knew and it looks like I have another 3 - 4 months of Clomid hell.  At least I'll get to see lots of pictures of my insides I guess.  I really hate this guy.  Very condescending.  And looked at his watch the entire time.  And wouldn't answer what I thought were very good questions.  What was I expecting though, it's a doctor contracted with Tricare.  

So there's my update.  And the saga continues.  I'll keep y'all updated should anything new happen.  
  ----- Original Message ----- 
  From: Kathryn Tewson 
  To: downen5804 at suddenlink.net ; 'Gals from the FF buddy group' 
  Sent: Tuesday, May 29, 2007 11:46 AM
  Subject: RE: [Poasplus] I think I diagnosed myself

  Oh my GOODNESS Jen!  I hope . . . argh, I don't know what I hope! I hope that it's easily identifiable and fixable.  Would Asherman's have caused your miscarriage too?

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    From: poasplus-bounces at murkworks.net [mailto:poasplus-bounces at murkworks.net] On Behalf Of downen5804 at suddenlink.net
    Sent: Tuesday, May 29, 2007 9:45 AM
    To: POASplus at murkworks.net
    Subject: [Poasplus] I think I diagnosed myself

    Ok, my first appointment at the fertility center is today at 2:00 pm.  I'll let y'all know how that goes after it goes.

    I went up to the clinic on base to get copies of all the labwork and HSG reports I had done so that I can bring everything with me today.  I even printed out every one of my fertility friend charts.  

    I'm looking at the report from the HSG I had last May.  All the doctor told me was that I definately had spillage from the right tube (the only tube they were able to fix during my tubal reversal in 2005).  So that's good right?  Yes.  Except for she didn't say A WORD to me about seeing an irregular filling defect in the right side of the uterus that wasn't there in my May 2005 HSG.  So she wrote possible uterine synechia.  

    I google it, and every website that has that lists Asherman's Syndrome beside it.  Which has the symptoms of little or no menstrual bleeding each month and increased cramping.  Which I have!  I have heavy cramping and bleeding the first day, mostly clots, and then several days of spotting.  EVERY MONTH.   It's caused by scar tissue formation in the uterus that keeps the lining from being released.  I don't really understand it.  

    I am just freaking out right now.  It's rare, but it happens and it is a cause for infertility.  Depending on how severe it is, if I have it, they may or may not be able to do surgery to fix it and also whether or not I get pregnant again depends on the severity as well.

    So, in a way I'm praying this isn't it.  But in a way I hope it is.  I'll go through surgery if it means I know why I can't get pregnant and it can be fixed.

    Hope y'all are doing great.

    Jen
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